The Story of Emmie-Rose

This is the story of a little girl that came into this world way ahead of schedule. Now fighting day by day until she can be home with her family. This is Emmie's story. From 23 weeks old on...

Friday, October 13, 2006

Oct 13, 2006 Lord Help Us

Well here I am again...... I havent posted in a long time due to time and energy. As You all may have read in the previous post.. On Oct 10th, We lost My Grandmother!! :( To tell You the truth, Im not sure how much more I can mentally take in My life right now. As I sit here crying, I feel the need to at least post and let You all know We havent forgotten about You and will keep updated the blog as time permits Us to do so. We lost My Grandfather back in 1999 and in 2000 Our Precious Z was born, so We know that God gave Chris and I her as an Angel of Papo's and We are forever grateful for that. We still miss him daily. We know the Lord has a plan for Ganky (thats what the Grandchildren call her) and that She is holding Emmie-Rose right now and taking care of her. We know She is so happy seeing Papo (Husband) again and Aunt Kim (her daughter) and Shannon (Granddaughter), Emmie-Rose (Great Granddaughter). We started Visitation last night, tons of People came to pay their respects.

Please pray for Us during this time as this is just a HUGE BLOW to Our Family as Ganky was Our "Head of the Family".

Dear Ganky,

It's Stephanie, I want You to know that I will Always Love You and Never Forget You!! My Love for You will NEVER die!! I know You are so much happier with Jesus and Papo, Aunt Kim, Shannon, Emmie-Rose and My other two Babies. You have no more pain or sickness and never have to worry again. I want You to know that I am okay and will always be okay, I know You were worried about Me but there's no need. I will get through My situation the Best I can. I the supposed to worry about others, not others worrying about Me. Please tell Emmie-Rose and My other two Babies Mommy said Hello and that I miss them terribly. Please take care of them for Me and Always tell them Mommy Loves Them.

My love to You forevermore!!
Stephanie Jalyn

PS: Please give Kisses to Papo for Me, and tell him I always remember him rattling his pocket change. :)

PSS: Please give Kisses to Aunt Kim and tell her I always remember her white escort and stopping at the store/gas station for Nestle Alpine White candy bars and going to the park (and going to Farmer Jack's for her Crab legs). LOL

PSSS: Please give Kisses to Shannon and tell Her She was So Beautiful in Her Wedding Gown.

To all Our faithful Readers, We want to extend a Special Thank You to You for Supporting Us during this time of sorrow. We are forever Blessed and Grateful for the Love and support You have given to Us.

May God Bless All of You!

Stephanie Jalyn

Anna L. Wallen
May You Rest In Peace Always


  • At 10/13/2006 09:06:00 AM, Anonymous Gramps & Barb said…

    We can not even express how our hearts ache for your whole family, Chris, Stephanie, our three darling granchildren, your mom Pam and Al, and Jay Chad and his whole family, and all other members of your family whose hearts are breaking because of this hugh loss. I just met Ann at Emmie-Rose's funeral and we spent quite a little time talking, she was the most charming, friendly, kind person.
    Steph and Pam I hope you really do feel that she is now with her husband, all the children that went on before her, and all her friends that are already with Jesus. For me, when I have lost someone that is my greatest salvation.
    I'm sorry we can't be with you but out thoughts and prayers are and we look forward to seeing you all soon.
    All our love to you all..

  • At 10/13/2006 10:05:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Know that you are not alone in knowing what it's like to experience the continued sorrow. Our family endured the loss of three people "in a row" as well. (Reguarding Christopher's post i.e. "Why does it always happen in three's?") We lost my mom ("Aunt Sally") in January 2001, And Chris' Mother ("Aunt Nancy" my godmother) the same year just days before the Sept 11th tragedy, and then before the year was up, one of our cousins, Joey (who was younger than Chris and I) passed on. It was a tough year, and it's still very tough. I know that there are much happier years ahead for you and your family. I hope that this coming year is a much happier year, and that the more happy times start now. Look to that beautiful family that you have, and you will see all the missed loved-ones in the eyes of your children, especially at Christmas when they are unwrapping presents. They will always be near.

    ~Kris in Florida

  • At 10/13/2006 05:43:00 PM, Blogger Dawn said…

    I sent you both an email, your in my prayers!!

    Steph- Keep writing to Ganky and to Emmie-Rose, etc... One thing I learned from my counslor, writing to them helps in so many ways. I keep a journal and write to mom all the time. Sounds corny but it really does help!!!

    I'm praying there WON'T be #3.

  • At 10/13/2006 08:04:00 PM, Blogger Xavier's Parents said…

    I am sorry for all the loses your family is having to go through.You are in my thoughts and prayers.If you need anything please don't hesitate to email me.God bless you and your family.

  • At 10/14/2006 07:27:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I am so sorry your family is going through so much pain right now. You are all in my prayers
    God Bless

  • At 10/14/2006 10:55:00 AM, Anonymous Jolleen said…

    My prayers continue upward for your family, my heart breaks with your loss...tell your 'Ganky' to tell my 'Gram' hello...I'm praying for you two.

  • At 10/15/2006 09:33:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Chris and Stephanie,

    This is a post I made to Emmie's Blog on the MySpace page that I created, and continue to upkeep for her. You can also read it on her profile page at the end of her story in the "Emmie's blurbs" section. It is set to the lovely, light rendition of "Somewhere over the Rainbow" by Hawaiian "Bruddah" israel Kamakawiwo'ole. When you are ready, you MUST go read Emmie's page. It has been so good for me spiritually and emotionally to create and upkeep that page. The love and support for you guys, and for Emmie that continues to come in to that page almost every day...the people who have been through similar situations as you . . .the people who's hearts are so touched by this little princess...this little angel that came to visit Earth for a couple months. Here is the post. . at


    In three days, it will be a month since Emmie has passed on. What's so amazing, is that the story of this little one CONTINUES to touch the hearts of so many as they stumble onto this page by accident. She almost has her own little ministry of sorts. Is it by accident? Everything happens for a reason. Maybe those who find this page will realize the reason they were drawn here.

    Emmie-Rose will live on in the hearts and souls, and the spirits of so many. She will live forever in the spirit of the universe. She now flows through every sunrise, every sunset. In each petal of every spring flower, In every feather on every bird. In every snowflake that glistens, and every brook that sings it's way through every forest, and every pebble that it meets on it's journey. In each maple seed and acorn, in every breeze that blows. In each autumn leaf that makes it's way to the ground to become recycled into Earth's rich soil, to eventually become the home for a growing plant again. Mitake Oyasin dear little one, Mitake Oyasin.

    Cousin Kris in Florida

  • At 10/16/2006 07:36:00 AM, Anonymous Heather said…

    My prayers go out to you Chris and Stephanie. I am sorry to hear about your grandmother. Especially at this time, though no time is easy I know you are already going thru a lot.

    I lost my dad 6 months after my daughter. He died from a massive brain hemorrhage, and my Granny died a month later followed by an uncle 2 wks after that. It was very hard but one thing that comforted me was I knew they were with my baby girl and loving on her for me. My grandma loved to cuddle babies and rock them to sleep. I could just see her doing that and my dad giving kisses to her and tickling her with his whiskers.

    So remember though you can't see your sweet grandma right now she is with Emmie-Rose watching over you all.


    ps. I forgot previously to tell you the March of Dimes has a bereavement kit you can call or write and request. It is full of a lot of nice material. It comes with a booklet with some poems,lots of internet resources for grief. I am a big advocate for MOD as an ambassador family now but when we lost Madison someone told me about the kit and now I try to make sure people get that when they need it. It is free to bereaved parents.

  • At 10/16/2006 10:03:00 AM, Anonymous hayley said…

    steph yooh are right gankey has no more pain,no more trips to the hospital,&& she got what she always be with papa,&& she is happier than she will ever be && though we will miss her dearly she is always with us. i love you so much steph if you need anything give us a call you know the hayley

  • At 10/16/2006 10:13:00 AM, Anonymous Nanamom said…

    Death is such a difficult concept for children and harder for us as adults to accept. I hope it is comforting for you and your children to know in a tangible way that your daughter/their sister is now being rocked by someone who knew and loved her on this earth, That both of them are whole again, and safe in God's love.

  • At 10/17/2006 03:58:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Unfortunatly, Something happened to Emmie-Roses MySpace page. This beautiful page was stolen, or hacked, or reported to MySpace for some falsified infraction, and then deleted, but it's totally gone. (MySpace is a stupid organization at times. Like eBay, most of the time they don't even read the pages that are reported, they just go along deleting profiles that are reported). I sent a message to "customer service" (I use that term lightly) asking them if they know what happened to the page, and if there's any way to get it back, ect. I've not had any response from them, which does not surprize me.

    A few statistics about the page. Emmie's MySpace blog had three full pages of suscribed readers, and that does not include the people who were not suscribers, who read the blog, as the blog was approaching almost 5,000 hits on it. There were 180 something people on the friends list, and everyday, I would get requests from people to be added. (Perhaps I unknowingly added someone who was able to hack the page). There were private messages from people who would share thier experiences with thier premies, there was a coments page with SO many beautiful coments and prayers from people who were rooting for Emmie, and who cried when they found that she passed on. People who really felt that they knew this child personally, because they followed her story every day. There were a couple of Stephanie's cousins there as well...(Jaymie and fiancee Amy was it?) And Susan, who reads the blog here and went to Emmie's Funeral. Many of the readers from the MySpace page came there from here, and came to here from the MySpace page, as I posted the address for the original blog there a few times.

    When I first created the page, It was simply called "Emmie-Rose" and her description sentence, next to her picture said "I'm a fighter, won't you come and fight alongside me?"
    There was a condensed story of Emmie's plight, that you could read while listening to the SmashMouth song "Tubthumping" that says "I get knocked down! But I get up again! Ain't nothing gunna keep me down!" Part of Kelly L.'s poem was posted there, with a note for people to come here to read it in it's entirety if they wished.

    Emmie's intrests included things like "I'm interested in going to school, learning to read and write, going to the prom, going to college, having a rewarding career, becoming a bride" ect. And for favorite movies, it said "I've already made my first TV appearance, maybe I'll be a movie star! I've been called a Diva! Maybe one day someone will make a movie about my fight and how it made me strong" And for books it said "I think I might like to write one someday...or maybe many! No telling what I might accomplish if given the chance!" Her hero's were listed as " My Mommy and my Daddy, for never giving up the fight for me to live!"

    After she passed, I added that to her profile story, and changed the name of the page to "R.I.P. Miss Emmie-Rose". I changed the song to Eric Clapton's "Tears in Heaven". The coments and the condolenced poured in like you would not beleive. Still, everyday that I logged on to the page, there were at least 3 new add requests for the friends list.

    After awhile, I changed the name of the page to "In Memory of Miss Emmie-Rose" and changed the song to the ecclectic version of "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" by israel Kamakawiwo'ole. And the page still was getting about 1 add request per day...people who had stumbled across the page "by accident," and wanted to be part of helping to keep this little angel's memory alive.

    It was not a fancy page with a flashy layout, I just used the standard MySpace layout. But it was beautiful, due to all the loving people who were on the friends list, who really cared about this child. Thier coments, thier prayers, thier encouragement, thier own pages...many of which were healing pages for these parents...with heart touching stories of the loss of thier own premie child, or a child who developed a terminal disease. You could see the suport for each other that these people so many of them were among each other's friends lists. Some pages contained stories of miricle children who somehow were able to win thier fight over thier situations. It was a beautiful page, full of people of beautiful spirit.
    I'm heartbroken over the loss of the page. On top of all else, it served to soothe me when I needed some quiet time.

    Since Chris and Stephanie didn't respond to my offers to take over the page themselves, I was thinking about where I would go with it next.
    With so many readers to the blog, and a rather small, but very caring group of people on the friends list, I could call it "Friends of Emmie-Rose"...and
    take another premie baby's plight "Under Emmie's Angel wing" or the plight of many premie so many other MySpace pages do. I could use it as an outlet to try to help spread the word in locating missing and endangered so many MySpace pages do. Or, something that appealed to me....I could find a little-known but very important cause that needs to have attention brought to it. I was pondering these kinds of things in the back of my mind while kind of waiting until I thought I got a sign from Emmie-Rose as to what she would want me to do with the page. Perhaps this means that Emmie felt the page should be deleted.

  • At 10/18/2006 06:42:00 PM, Blogger Dawn said…

    Oh WOW- I can't believe they shut her page down. Did you find anything out Kris?????????


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